moment

there is a moment once i need you to be with me
when i felt so down
when i felt really need u
but u cant  be there sayang
it hurt me a lot
deep inside me there is a pain that i cant describe with words, only me can felt that
yes, i knew u rite now have fun with ur friends
that why i rather be down alone
i doesnt want to speak anything
i think the last message that i text u is already known by u how much that i need u that time and rite now
i wish that u rite now with me, listen i.m crying and tell u how much i felt down with my self'
give me some motivation words can made through tomorrow test
give me some smile
wipe me tears
made me confident with myself.
yes, i knew that. it just my wish for moment i need u. really need u. :'(
i'm waiting for ur calls or even a text from u until now.
but.. it another my wish. wish that cant be fulfill....................................................................................

rinduuu nak dating!

thanks sayang

sayang.. thanks that always by my side whenever i need u
thanks for be such a great boyfren ever
thanks for never left me alone
thanks for every single those care,love that u gave to me
i'll always keep that inside my heart and my mind
thanks for always take care of our rlntship
sayang.. u are the one who gave me strong and everything
every time i see ur face or imagine ur face,ur smile and everything about u i get a new spirit..
yes sayang,, i'm know that i'm not the one can give ur spirit
but. i just wanna let u know that i always by ur side to listen and share everything sayang
we are in love together but on the same time  we are bestfren
dear sayang, thanks for always loving me
dear sayang, please keep my heart that u hold carefully
never let it down,
never left it alone
sayang,i'm knew that i'm not pretty enough
i hop u wont regret it to have me as ur gf
sorry sayang because always bother in ur life
soory sayang because i'm always want u by my side
sorry sayang because i;m always cry
i;m knew that u sick of and sometimes fuck of when i;m crying
that the only way i can reduce my pain inside my heart
i'm sorry sayang that i'm always need u
i'm sorry sayang if sometimes my words hurt u
sayang,our ring,our pictures,our memories help me through my days
sayang.. soory if sometimes i made u bored
sayang.. sorry that i'm always sick lately
sayang,, sorry because i'm made u worried about me

u are the only one in my heart <3

i love u muhd sharir

dear Allah

ya Allah please help soften his heart To accept me as i am 
Because I am not willing 
Because I am not able to Live without him by my side
ya Allah I know i have a lot of sin
Only remember You when i'm in grief
But only You are capable to open and unlock The door of his heart to accept my love
Night please bring my thought To him that is far from me
To ensure he is not lonely
Always feel this sense of great love
Rain please bring my tears For him
to know im in pain 
Without his love in my heart
dear Allah
thanks for meet up me and him
thanks gave me knew such a wonderful and great man in my life
i hope he is my future hubby,my father of my children
Aminnn




sayang.. everything i'm done mostly is because of u by my side
sayang.. i'm knew that i'm not perfect to made u always happpy
sayang.. please don't walk away from me
sayang.. thanks for everything
sayang.. only u in my heart,mind
sayang.. ilysm.imysm

IF YOU ARE NOT THE ONE

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know whatthe future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

meet up :)

yeah! i meet up with u back sayang after 2 months we being apart is so awesome sweetheart..
i can see u smile. ur laugh and everything.. everything i missed when i'm in kedah we do it again sayang..
b,, u are so romantic.. i remember everything single those words u said to me, every single thing we done together sayang..b,, thanks for the star,shirt,ur spectacles that u love the most.. thanks for the crystal that inside wrote i love u.. and everythinglaa sayang.. i'm so happy b.. really happy.. i think u can see through my face that i'm really happy with u.. spent my times together.. listen u sang a song when we walked around larkin.. u hold my hand tightly and don't want to let go.. i feel so in love with u b.. we share everything together sayang..
b,, ingt x.. kite jln kt danga bay,, xlarat nak naik bukit even though bukit tu xtinggi pon.. kite makan steamboat 2 hari berturut2,, haha.. first kite mkn just two of us.. then kite mkn with abah n mama syg.. i never asked any of my bf to eat together with my parents..it just u b! only u i asked together with my parents.. i wanna to make sure that my parents knew that,, u can take care of me.. especially my abah.. then.. the saddest part sayang.. syg anta b kt larkin.. sdeyh sgt.. syg xpnh hanta bf syg blik.. this is my first tme doing that. sedeyh sgt sweetheart.. i'm try my best xnanges dpn b.. cause i knew that,, of i'm crying in front of u.. lagy berat haty b nk tgglkan syg kt situ.. nth2 b terus tuka tiket balek esok.. heee.. i hope b u happy with me.. i'm really happy that i could spent my days and times with  my sweetheart.. u are too awesome bf that i never had entire of my life...  u have asked me that i wanna beur wife and be 'ibu' for ur sons? the answer i do sayang.. but i wanna have a daughter too taw..now,, we have been apart again b.. next month i will back to johor bahru again.. sorry during ur semester break i couldnt have time to be in johor bahru.. :(
ilysm b.. really love u.. thanks for loving me sweetheart.. :)

another raya.. :)

dear my lovely boyfren muhd sharir...
it just our another raya together..
thanks for be with me..
thanks taw sweetheart blek dari melaka terus dtg jmpe syg
syg tawu b pnt tp b still dtg jmpe syg after 2 months kite xjmpe kan
it great to see ur smile,laugh,and everything..
it great to see u are so happy see me
it great to know that u really miss me sayang
sayang,, distance is not the reason that our love will ruin,, but it become more stronger from days to days..
i love u so much b.. :)
my heart is full with ur love sayang..
u are the reason why i become more stronger from days to days..
u are the reason for everything..
this because u love me sayang..

i'm reserved for sharir.. :)

firstly,, syg nak wish kt b happy belated birthday yang
suppose syg update blog nie smlm..sorry sweetheart xsempat nk update blog smlm..
hm.. just another 15 days we can meet up b after 2 months we didnt meet yang..
b,,i already reserved for u sayang..
here the evidence that i'm reserved for u..

 so.. for those guys out there.. sorry i'm already reserved for him.. muhd sharir.. :)
 yangg... xsabanyeeee nak jmpee b...
imysm sayang... <3

i love u,, that all.. :)

Sometimes I wonder why I fell in love with you in the first place, and continue to love you even after all the pain. And then you smile at me and I realize why; without you, I can't breathe.

Everytime I say I love you...

I'm really trying to say so much more than those three little words.
I'm trying to say you mean more to me than anyone else in the world.
I'm trying to let you know that I adore you and that I cherish the time we spend together.
I'm trying to explain that I want you and that I need you and that I get lost in wonderful thoughts every time I think about you.
And each time I whisper "I love you", I'm trying to remind you that you're the best thing that has ever happened to me


One day someone will walk into your life and make you see why it never worked out with anyone else..


i can't promise you a life without ups and down, nor can i promise you a relationship without quarrel, but i can promise you that what ever God give us, sorrow and sadness or joy and happiness, i will hold on to you just as long as you hold on to me


Learn to love the people who are with you at present and forget the people in the past but THANK them for hurting you which led you to love the person you have right now.

Happiest couples in the world, never have the same ‘NATURE’.
They just have the best ‘UNDERSTANDING, of their ‘DIFFERENCES’

You make me happier than I ever thought I could be and if you let me I will spend the rest of my life trying to make you feel the same way.

The longer you wait for something,
The more you appreciate it when you get,
Because anything worth having is definitely worth waiting for...!

When I text you, that means I miss you. When I don’t text, that just means I’m waiting for you to miss me.

i know sometimes you don't like my own personality..am not perfect..but behind those imperfections i am still here, silently loving you..

ilysm..:)

we have been 3 months sayang ... :)

we have been 3 months together sayang...
BUT we are being so far away...
i wanna celebrate our aniversary together sayang if we had chances

i wish u were here b.. :(

dear my sweetheart muhd sharir.. :)

b u should hear this song..
it very mean to me sayang...
this how i paint my days with u and i wish u feel the same way as me sayang
b,, i really love u sayang..
ilysm muhd sharir... :)
thanks for stole my heart b and cheerish it everyday with all of u love...
heeee...

i love u b...

     

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
...4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!
:)

you are the only exception in my life

i knew this month is the hardest month for both of us..
i will try to bring back us in a right track again..
i'm sorry for everything sayang
i wish that i had never done those things to u
i just can said sorry for everything
really sorry..
so sorry for everything sayang

yes!!!! i love u.. :)

• Orang yang mencintai kamu tidak pernah mampu memberikan alasan kenapa dia mencintai kamu. Yang dia tahu di hati dan matanya hanya ada kamu satu-satunya
• Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu menerima kamu apa adanya, di hati dan matanya kamu selalu yang tercantik walaupun mungkin kamu merasa berat badan kamu sudah bertambah.
• Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin tahu tentang apa saja yang kamu lalui sepanjang hari ini, dia ingin tahu kegiatan kamu
• Orang yang mencintai kamu akan mengirimkan SMS seperti ‘Selamat Pagi’,’Selamat Hari Minggu’, ‘Selamat Tidur’, ‘Take Care’, dan lain-lain lagi, walaupun kamu tidak membalas SMS-nya, kerana dengan kiriman SMS itulah dia menyatakan cintanya, menyatakan dalam cara yang berbeza,bukan “aku CINTA padamu”, tapi berselindung ayat selain kata cinta itu.
• Orang yang mencintai kamu akan selalu mengingat setiap kejadian yang dia lalui bersama kamu, bahkan mungkin kejadian yang kamu sendiri sudah melupakannya, kerana saat itu ialah sesuatu yang berharga untuknya.Dan saat itu, matanya pasti berkaca. kerana saat bersamamu itu tidak bisa berulang selalu.
• Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu mengingati setiap kata-kata yang kamu ucapkan, bahkan mungkin kata-kata yang kamu sendiri lupa pernah mengungkapkannya. kerana dia menyematkan kata-kata mu di hatinya,berapa banyak kata-kata penuh harapan yang kau tuturkan padanya, dan akhirnya kau musnahkan? pasti kau lupa, tetapi bukan orang yang mencintai kamu.
• Orang yang mencintai kamu akan belajar menggemari lagu-lagu kegemaran kamu, bahkan mungkin meminjam CD milik kamu, kerana dia ingin tahu apa kegemaran kamu – kesukaan kamu kesukaannya juga, walaupun sukar meminati kesukaan kamu, tapi akhirnya da berjaya.
• Kalau kali terakhir kalian bertemu kamu mungkin sedang selesema, atau batuk-batuk, dia akan sentiasa mengirim SMS atau menelefon untuk bertanya keadaan kamu – kerana dia bimbangkan tentang kamu, peduli tentang kamu.
• Jika kamu mengatakan akan menghadapi ujian, dia akan tanyakan bila ujian itu berlangsung, dan saat harinya tiba dia akan
  mengirimkan SMS ‘good luck’ untuk memberi semangat kepada kamu.
• Orang yang mencintai kamu akan memberikan suatu barang miliknya yang mungkin buat kamu itu ialah sesuatu yang biasa, tetapi
  baginya barang itu sangat istimewa.
• Orang yang mencintai kamu akan terdiam sesaat, ketika sedang bercakap di telefon dengan kamu, sehingga kamu menjadi bingung.Sebenarnya saat itu dia merasa sangat gugup kerana kamu telah menggegarkan dunianya.
• Orang yang mencintai kamu selalu ingin berada dekat dengan kamu dan ingin menghabiskan hari-harinya hanya dengan kamu
• Jika suatu saat kamu harus pindah ke daerah lain, dia akan sentiasa memberikan nasihat agar kamu waspada dengan persekitaran yang boleh membawa pengaruh buruk kepada kamu. dan jauh dihatinya dia benar-benar takut kehilangan kamu, pernah dengar ‘jauh di mata, jauh di hati?’
• Orang yang mencintai kamu bertindak lebih seperti saudara daripada seperti seorang kekasih.
• Orang yang mencintai kamu sering melakukan hal-hal yang SENGAL seperti menelefon kamu 100 kali dalam masa sehari. Atau
  mengejutkan kamu di tengah malam dengan mengirim SMS. Sebenarnya ketika itu dia sedang memikirkan kamu.
• Orang yang mencintai kamu kadang-kadang merindukan kamu dan melakukan hal-hal yang membuat kamu pening kepala. Namun ketika kamu mengatakan tindakannya itu membuat kamu terganggu dia akan minta maaf dan tak akan melakukannya lagi.
• Jika kamu memintanya untuk mengajarimu sesuatu maka ia akan dgn sabar walaupun kamu mungkin orang yang terbodoh di dunia!. bahkan dia begitu gembira kerana dapat membantu kamu. dia tidak pernah mengelak dari menunaikan permintaan kamu walau sesukar mana permintaan mu.
• Kalau kamu melihat handphone-nya maka nama kamu akan menghiasi sebahagian besar INBOX-nya. Dia masih menyimpan SMS-SMS dari kamu walaupun ia kamu kirim berbulan-bulan atau bertahun-tahun yang lalu. Dia juga menyimpan surat-surat kamu di tempat khas dan segala pemberian kamu menjadi benda-benda berharga buatnya.
• jika kamu cuba menjauhkan diri daripadanya atau memberi reaksi menolaknya, dia akan menyedarinya dan menghilang dari
  kehidupan kamu, walaupun hal itu membunuh hatinya.
• Jika suatu saat kamu merindukannya dan ingin memberinya kesempatan dia akan ada menunggu kamu kerana sebenarnya dia tak
  pernah mencari orang lain. Dia sentiasa menunggu kamu.
• Orang yang begitu mencintaimu, tidak pernah memaksa kamu memberinya sebab dan alasan, walaupun hatinya meronta ingimengetahui, kerana dia tidak mahu kamu terbeban dengan karenahnya. saat kau pinta dia berlalu,dia pergi tanpa menyalahkan kamu,kerana dia benar-benar mengerti apa itu cinta.
• p/s : i love u soooooo much muhd sharir.. <3

i'm admit that i'm too degil

when u listen to this song sayang,,close ur eyes..
i mean it b.. -_-"

i'm falling even more with u , LOVE :)

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking, completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation, you take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose, there's nothing else to find

LOVE,, thanks for all of u love u gave to me
LOVE,, thanks for be my sweetest boyfren ever
LOVE,, i will never let u go
LOVE, ilysm-liytm-ilydm-
LOVE,, wait for me
LOVE,, stay by my side whenever i need u

sorry -__-"

sorry i neglect all u words
sorry i broke my promise
sorry i broke ur trust towards me
sorry if i remind u about the past
sorry i dont mean it at all
sorry if i cant still forget the past
sorry i have put all my effort to build ur trust towards u
sorry if u think i"m the one who like to remind the past
sorry if i lately being so degil
sorry if i didn't listen ur words
everytime u said those words made me feel broken deep inside
i just not like her
if i the one who feel like that..
i'm sorry..
i knew,,deep inside ur heart.. u worried about me..
i knew that u love me too much..
that why u give me all the words
i'm so sorry to u sayang
i din't mean to do such things at all

i just wanna adapt that i'm far away from u
i love ur voice when u mad
but i feel scared
if u not the one who ask me not to do that,not to this,who else syg
u the one who always with me.. almost 24 hours..
i'm alone here sayang
i'm sorry again..if u not ask me not to do that and this
i think that,, i might become like me before
i'm sorry again b..
i'm so sorry made ur heart turn into pieces
i'm so sorry...
i'm really sorry for everything..
give me a chance to follow all ur words
give ur trust..
i'm not her...i love u b..i'm sorry again.. please forgive me.. -_-"

life in uitm merbok

damn.. just a few days kt sini da rase mcm bertaun.. sume ssh.. ya allah inikah dugaan kt sini..
mkn ssh,,transport..bayangkan la weekend nak mkn lunch pon ssh..mlm boleh katakan makan bnd same..
mlm nie mkn nasik goreng ayam lepas ue char kuey tiaw..loss of weight suddenly..seriously.. xkn la hari2 nak mkn maggi..sekarang serious mmg aq tgh nanges..meratapi hidup kt sini.. 6 bulan nak bertahan.. kalau ad kete or moto..much easier our life kt sini.. skrg kol 1.42 pm.. and aq still xmkn lunch.. nak mkn maggi? hm xde slere... nak keluar carik kedai mkn xde.. bayangkan laa.. nk kene g kedai mkn pon kene naik cab.. people easy to say anything..but they doesnt know my condition here.. seriously,, i miss home soo much.. :'(
tgk org blek umah cuty weekend.. sedeyh jek.. untongggllaaa korang umah dekat boleh blek.. yg aq niee? jb ke kedah.. 12 hours.. tgk housemate aq parents dorg dtg tgk dorg pon aq sedeyh.. some of them dpt jmpe bf dorg pon aq sedeyh..this is life.. in this week.every night aq nges.. but in front of my housemate i show them i'm okay.. every day mama and skype..cll.. aq pretend aq happy.. but the true is i'm not okay here..now..housemate aq sume kuar.. and i'm alone.. with myself.. at the end of this house.. crying alone and wish them come home early...

this song just for u sayang.. :)

love, u made me became more stronger than before..
love, u are evrything to me
love, u are special to me
love,love,love,
be with u i fell over the rainbow.. :)

happy aniversary sayang!!!

today is currently,officially we have been a month together love.
love,u such a great boyfriend
love u are my evrything
love u the only one
love u must know that i always will lend my shoulder for u to cry on
love i always lend my ears to hear everything ur problems
love i always be there for u if u wanna me be there
love i always lend my eyes if u cant see in the dark
love i will become a light in the darkness
love i keep u in my heart
love u stole my heart without i realized at all
love i wanna u know that u are so important in my life now
love i dont want to see u kusot anymore
love i will give all my love just for u
love see ur happiness already made me happy
love see ur smile made me feel the sunshine
love hear ur voice made me feel calm and feel being love by u
love please dont run away again
love bergurau with u is very wonderful
love no matter what,i will stand our relantship
love i will wipe ur tears if u cry
love if i cant see in the darknees please show me the way out from there
love holding hands with u is great coz i know there is a person who protect me
love thanks for listen my problems
love thanks for be with me
love thanks always layan my kerenah
love i know that deep inside ur heart u dont wanna us be apart
love our rings at our fingers is very important..please take care of it
love,,i really love u so much..
happy aniversary sayangku..
this song i dedicated for u..
i hope u can take care of urself and take care of our rlntship... :)
ilysm,ilydm,ilytm..cannot count anymore my love for u

every single of these lyrics is very means to me sayang..

why i smile?

• sbb b ad dgn sayang sentiase
• sbb b suke sgt dengki syg
• sbb b nan syg suke maen majok2
• sbb b sweet sgt
• sbb bile syg bgon pg syg tawu b ad dgn syg
• sbb b slalu cll syg every time b bgon tido
• sbb syg suke dgr sore seksi b,,haha
• sbb dye bnyk sgt.. yg lain2 xleyh cite kt sini.. private.. :p
• lagu nie myb can explain why i smile..:)

•  mohd sharir.. ilysm b.. seriously.. u made me smile everyday.. :)

kau istimewa... :)

Tiada puisi atau lagu
Tiada potret tiada ragu
Yang dapat ku ilham seindahmu
Nyata kau satu dalam berjuta
Wahai sharir kau istimewa

Walau ku kembara sedunia
Walau ketemu ramai lelaki
Nyata kau tiada tandingannya
Seikhlas hati aku menyinta
Kau istimewa, teristimewa 
Daku berikrar 
Wahai maharajaku 
Bina mahligai syahdu 
Hanya engkau dan aku di situ 

Tiada mimpi atau fantasi 
Tiada rasa lebih berseri 
Semekar murni hatimu sayang 
Siang dan malam, aku terbayang 
Kau istimewa, buat ku tenang 
Ingin ku bawa kau ke awana
Ingin memadu kasih asmara
Sepanjang hayatku curah cinta
Sebenar-benar ucapan kata
Kau istimewa oh! Percayalah
Ku perlu cinta dari mu sharir nan istimewa
Beriku cintamu nan istimewa

p/s: nie lirik lagu istimewa indigo.. i change a little bit.. i just can potrayed everything through this lyric coz i feel u so special b!

u are the one who i wanna running of together b.. :)

love all this song.. :)

first song him give to me when we not yet be together.. 

then other song he give to me when we already together

then.. something happen.. everyday i heard this song

then now we are together back.. all this song he sang for me when we were skype.. :)

gosh! he just made me more in love with him.. i still remember ur smile and ur face when u sang these songs to me b.. ilysm.. :)

i'll be there if u wanna me be there for u.. :)

i am afraid of something..

i'm afraid that i might lost of u again..
i'm afraid that i cant made u happy
i'm afraid that she will take u from me again
i'm afraid that we will be apart
i'm afraid that i could live without u
i'm afraid that i cant fulfill all my promises to u
i'm afraid that everything between us will be end like that
i'm afraid that u will leave me alone
there is something that i wanna u be by my side
i need u to be more stronger so i can  face everything
i hope everything between us will never end like that
every single of ur smile made me feel happy
every single of ur words i still remember
i dont know why
but i'm really afraid that i might lost u againn...

sebab ape kite suke b?

kite suke b sbb b baik
kite suke b sbb b penyayang
kite suke b sbb syg kite
kite suke b sbb b putih gebu
kite suke b sbb mcm cina
kite suke b sbb mate b sepet
kite suke b sbb b kurus
kite suke b sbb b hot
kite suke b sbb kite leyh jd diri kite sndiri
kite suke b sbb b suke bce blog kite
kite suke b sbb kite slalu skype
kite suke b sbb bler rmbut b pnjg b hensem
kite suke b ble b buat rmbut mcm org innocent,cute sgt
kite suke b sbb b cute suke pink
kite suke b sbb b teman kite buka jhit operation
kite suke b sbb b bg kite kate smgt slalu
kite suke b sbb b jeles dgn tochiba kalau kite asyik pegang2  web cam mase  skype
kite suke b sbb b nyanyi an kite lagu mase skype
kite suke b sbb b slalu buat kite gelak
kite suke b sbb b suke buat kite tersenyum
kite suke b sbb b romantik
kite suke b sbb b ckp kite da plaster aty b
kite suke b sbb b slalu ckp love u and miss u at the end of the phone call and skype
kite suke b sbb b leyh jd gram sgt sbb rindu kan kite
kite suke b sbb b sanggup blek dr melaka nk jmpe kite kt jb
kite suke b sbb b slalu buat kite nges kebahagiaan
kite suke b sbb kite berdue da lalui sweetest memories
kite suke b sbb kite berdue da lalui perit pedih together
kite suke b ble b ckp b syg kite ssgt
kite suke b sbb ble b kiss dahi kite rase kasih syg dr b
kite suke b sbb ingt tarikh annversary,cpl blek and first time kite jmpe
kite suke b sbb b tawu beza an muke kite masa kite sdeyh and happy
kite suke b sbb b xbg kite pakai ketat2 and seksi
kite suke b sbb b xbg kite senyum smpai nmpk lesung pipit kite takot laki lain tergoda
kite suke b sbb kite boleh manja2 dgn b
kite suke b sbb b open minded
kite suke b sbb b nk jaga kite
kite suke b sbb b slalu risau an kite
kite suke b sbb flower girl and flower boy
kite suke b sbb diri b sndiri
kite suke b sbb b pnas aty kalau ad org usha kite
kite suke b sbb b xleyh lupakan kite
kite suke b sbb b suke buat super saver
kite suke b sbb b da mulakan hidup baru dgn kite
kite suke b sbb b syg kite sepenuh aty
kite suke b sbb b suruh kite berhenti smoke
kite suke b sbb damia tnye pasal b even baru skali jmpe
kite suke b sbb gigi b lawa
kite suke b sbb b my sayang
kite suke b sbb kite syg kn b ssgt
kite suke b sbb b boleh terima buruk dan baik kite
kite suke b sbb b ckp kite bukan mcm girl lain yg b pnh kenal
kite suke b smpai kite da xleyh nk type lagy
sbb kite trlampau syg and suke an b
ILYSM muhd sharir.. :)

kesabaran :)

manusia selalunya xnak sabar dengan ape yg jadi kt diri mereka.. setiap kesabaran tu msty ad balasan nyee..
contohnye,,penah rase saba menanti seseorang yg korg minat? pnh? mengharap org ue akan menjadi milik kite..
yup,, i have been through this situation. menanti dan berharap dye akn jd milik aq satu ary nty. mcm nie,, last year bulan pose,ad one of my fren nie.. he shows me one of his fren punye gmba..only one glance jek aq tgk.. tap! something inside my heart said that. aq nk knl dgn budak nie dgn lebeyh dkt.. kwn aq ckp la dye name sharir.. tp aq da knl an kt dye kt duyung..so.aq rase xpela.. myb he not meant to me la an..sbb si duyung nie pon slalu gak cite kt aq pasal satu budak nie name dye ari.. aq tnye kt dye knp pnggl dye ari.. dye ckp saje jek.. kalau akak aq tnye aq sape nie ari.. aq ckp la nie ira..sje jek trblek an name ira jdy ari..aq xtawu pulak ari yg dok dye cte nie si sharir nie.. so aq just look from far everything happens between  them. i just hope he and duyung nie akn kekal. i just wanna see he happy.. xtawu aa knp ad prasaan mcm ue..but deep inside my heart. i hope he will be mine.lpas ue,, dye break dgn duyung... dye ad gak cntct aq mase asasi second sem.. tp aq kurg berperasaan time ue.. then dye pon xteruskn usaha dye ue.. aq pon let him go. sbb aq rase. dye xsuke aq la ue an.. then dpt tawu dye cpl nan someone nie.. lame gak dye cpl dgn this girl.. so i just let him go again. and hope that he will be mine again one day. then,, lpas aq dpt taawu dye da break dgn that girl ue.. aq happy and try la nk knl dye. mule sbgai teman.. than kitaorg pon brcpl.. then enth mcm mane.. something happen between us.. pedih.. sbb i need to let him go about the third time.. that time i just pray that.. kalau dye milik aq,, dye akn dtg blek.. kalau x.. dye akn prgi trus.. aq sabar dgn sgalanye jdy.. mmg ssh nk lpas an org yg kite syg..akhirnye.. kesabaran aq trbalas.. dye kmbali pada aq.. aq bersyukur sgt doa dimakbulkan..
kini.. dye milik aq. xmungkin aq akn lepas kn dye buat kali keempat.. tak mungkin dan tk mungkin.. aq berharap segalanye akn stay always happy.. i hope that.. so kesimpulannya disini.. kite kene saba dgn ape yg jdy. kesabaran kite pasti akn diblas dgn sesuatu yg indah.. insyaAllah..:)

perfect two b... :)

with full of love sharir laling.. :)
miss u damn much already...
last friday is such a memorable day in my life.
i will never forget that day
and today also sayang
we need to wait another 2 weeks to meet up again.. :)
thanks b coz blek from melaka to jb sbb nk jmpe kite
i knew that u were tired
u done it for me and i really appreciate it syg
sorry for the 'ngilu' one ea b..haha.. :P
ilydm.. :)

thanks too u guys!!

thanks to my dearest mama and abah for always be by my side...

thanks to my three superawesome brothers : abg mie ,abg lem and abg zeli

thanks to my sisters-in-law : kak ieda and kak melly

thanks to my cute miut omey demok achu : shasha

thanks to my others family : mak wan,ibu,ayah,mak,ayah,

thanks to my handsome and beautiful cousins :- mok,babat,farah, ( we so close coz we grew up together )

                                                                     -  kak ila,along, kak reen,kak yati,nana,syamil,kak ekin     

thanks to my beloved boyfren that always cheer me up with ur love : sharir laling :)

thanks to my super duperb beshfwen since tadika : farah nina ishak.. :)

thanks to my beshtish : alya,botak,hanny,zera,tym,leman

thanks to you guys!! ilysm all of u

u guys are so important to me in my life

u guys are full of rainbow in my life

i'm so close with u guys..  

totally love u all..:)

ramadhan yg penuh berkah

jeng..jeng..bulan pose niee.. allah.. terlampau bnyk dugaan yg datang kt aq.. haisshh..itu la ini la.. saba jek..

apekah..lepas dye aq lepaskan utk bersama yg dye syg..dtg seseorg cube ketuk pintu hati niee..wahhhh..mcm nina ckp laa..ira nie pantang single..skjp jek ad yg masuk line..haha..entahla..ape yg ad pade diri aq pon xtawu..aq bersyukur cukup sifat..alhamdulilah..hm pneng nk bce an.. aq name an si baru nie mr.A..A dtg saat aq betul2 tgh down,kecewe dgn si dye..A cube ketuk2 pintu hati nie..mcm ad sesuatu yg menghalang aq utk membenarkan A masok dlm aty niee..sumpah,,demi allah haty nie masih milik si dye,, aq berharap dan berdoa si dye akn dtg balik pada ku. doa aq termakbul.. si dye sudah break dgn minah ue..hehe..jahat jugek ea aq doa mcm ue..haha.. xpelaa.. aq xsnggup tgk dye sket dgn minah ue.. minah ue sndiri ckp dye xleyh bahagia an si dye..tp aq xckp dgn si dye pon..sbb aq tawu si dye syg gyle gaban kt minah ue.. sbb ue dye pilih si dye berbanding diri ku ini.. bercerita pulak tentang A,,A nie baru sahaja beberapa hari aq kenal dye..exactly mamat nie classmate skwla rnda aq.. tidak kuu tahu dye menanti aq 8 taun.. mule2 aq ingt itu hanya la main2 dr dye kt fesbuk wall aq ue.. owh skali betul setelah ku berikan num phone..dan dye mengatakan.. dye mmg suke kt aq.. aq dan dye skrg sdg mengenal hati budi..cehh ayat..ayt novel an.. hahahaha.. lps ue baru aa kitaorg nk declare cpl or just fren...so matang aq rase tahap niiiiiee..skrg.. aq hanya nk mengenali hati kedue2nye.. adekah si dye betul2 nk kt aq.. begitu jugak dgn A.. apekah makne aq pd dorg? pentingkah aq pade diri dorg?apekah benefit yg dorg dpt kalau cpl nan aq? ape yg dorg pandang kt aq? ape istimewa aq niee?adekah dpt menerima buruk diri aq nie? dpt trima aq seikhlasnye? soalan2 nie bermain2 di fikiran aq..

ketika ini lagu kisah dongeng stacy bermain2 kt telinga aq niee..haha..

nah2.. kalau korg nk dgr jugekkk..

 

lirik niee adalah permintaan aq.. xlebeyh dr ue aq mnx dari nieeee.. :)

gigi ku... :)

hey.. korang penah kene minor surgery for korang punye teeth? xpnh an..mase ary selase ary ue aq kene bedah untuk gigi.. sbb ape? sbb gg aq kene infection kt urat ue.. ad gigi yang patah xhabis kt garaham ue. dentist aq ckp myb mase aq accident mase maen netball a few years later that why dye xpatah habis,, then ad gigi bongsu nk kuar kt tmpt yg patah separuh ue xleyh nk kuar.. complicated betul gigi aq nie an.. tp aq syg kt gigi aq nie sume..yg aq pelik an..mcm mane time aq accident kpale dgn player ue,,dye xde pape..kepala apekah player ue..? aq yg seriously injured..gigi masok kedalam nan patah xhabis.. never mind laa.. haa,,cite pasal minor surgery nie..mule-mule nk masok bilik dentist ue..seram sejuk.. muke aq sumpah pucat.. mama ad nan aq time ue..alhamdulilah rase ok skit..bile name aq kene sebut jek nan assistant dentist ue.. kaki aq melangkah lemah longlai..mcm nk merangkak pon ad..nk tawu x first skali dentist ue ckp mase aq salam dgn dye..
"hye,,lawa cardigan u syg,,where u bought it? sy xpnh jumpe cardigan yg bercorak macam nie"
dlm aty aq time ue dentist nie bergurau betul tnye pasal cardigan pulak..da la org tgh takot nk kene surgery..
after talking nan dentist ue about my cardigan yg dye suke ue.. dye pon amek jarum bius...pehh sket nye terase mase kene bius uee.. lpas ue ok daa.. xrase pape.. aq tgk alat2 dye gune ue mcm gerudi pon ad gak.. bnd alah yg mcm gerudi dye gune ue.. bile dye kene an dkt gigi a..berasap weyh..keluar asap dari gigi.. haha..
then lpas ue darah kuar bnyk smpai kene muke aq skit..mcm2 laaa.. nk keluar an gigi aq jek hmpir stgh jam..
then alhamdulilah..brjaye kuar jugek gg yg kene infection ue and gigi bongsu yg tertanam kt graham ue..
part pling best,dye jhit la an after bedah ue..aq tgk dye jahit..mcm jahit manik kt tudung jek an. ngilu kot maae dye jahit ue. 45 mimutes.done..aq da siap kene surgery and jahit skali laa..
until today after surgery uee.. aq xleyh ckp,bengkak kt tmpt surgery,pling xbest susah nk mkn.even telan air pon rse sketnyee..so mkn sup campbell sahaja laaa..i'm just imagine,,if he with me rite now.. aq msty lagy happy and rse kurang la sikit sket..stiap ary since that day..aq tunggu phone cll or text from him..konon la an nk move on sgt.. take slowly..like what leman told me.."dun let go,keep it as treasure.its ur woderfull moment.when u're ready enough it will leave on its own or it'll keep as ur sweet memories"
bercerita pasal gigi niee... dye ckp la gigi aq chipmunk bukan gigi rabbit.. jeles la toe an xde gigi unik mcm gigi aq niee..awk,,sy tersangat la rindu an awk.. haaa.. kalau awk tgh bce post nie..awk rindu kite la ue an..
tipu mandul...sy nk awk tawu.. kalau awk rindu sy.. sy lagy rindu awk.. text la sy just said u miss me..
that all.. nie akn buat hidup sy riang ria..mcm riang ria adilfitri ue taw.. awk hilang terus mcm ue..agy perit nk lupe an awk mcm mane perit nye xleyh telan air beberapa ary nie.. opss.. sorry..terjiwang kjap..dentist ue ad bg gigi aq ue bwak blek umah nk tanam..lepas ue an gigi hilang nth kemane after abah tgk dan gelak2 kan..
aq tnye abah mane pegi gigi ira abah? abah ckp xtawu la.. aq da carik satu umah xjumpe gigi uee..abah ckp gigi ue ad kot syg..that why dye hilang..tdy abah tell me the truth..excatly ira,,abah da tanam ur teeth.. haishh abah ku ini..satu umah org crik dgn mama kt umah..aq siap panggil gigi ue.. jgn maen hide and seek..abh da tanam upenyee.. thanks la abh coz da tanam my teeth,,love u abah n mama.. :)
so,,conclusion disinii.. jage la gigi anda.. jangan biar kan gigi anda accident ketika bersukan dan sayangi gigi anda.. :)

i move on slowly through this song..:)

Here I am again, doing things I said that I wouldn't doSo get off your knees, your words don't mean anything
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/bruno_mars/only_when_youre_lonely.html ]
After all the things you put me through, ooh still I come right back
But now I know the truth, I can finally see
You only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

Oh, nothing's ever changing, decisions you can't make it
You just think of yourself and never me at all
If you're with your friends, you just string me along
But I won't allow it anymore, so it's time for me to move on

It's 3AM and I'm rushing out the door to see you
Waiting, all day, but now you wanna call me
Why do you do this to me all the time?

After all the things you put me through, still I come right back
But now I know the truth, I can finally see
You only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely

Had me fooled from the start and I quickly gave my heart
Cause I loved you, loved you, loved you
But this is what happens when you're a lonely girl with no one to turnNow I'm stronger, don't need you any longer

Cause I can finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely

I can finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

keep on running

awk, jgn risau, jgn  kusut, jgn sedeyh,
sy tawu ape yg awk buat sume nie hanya untuk dye bahagia
awk, kite tawu.. jauh dlm aty awk ad sy jugek
awk jgn risau.. sy akn terus berlari jauh untuk lupa an sume ni
sy xkan gnggu awk sepertimana yg awk nak
wlwpon berat untuk sy lakukan tp sy kene kuat
sy kene kuat untuk awk trus bahagia
sy kene kuat untuk awk hilang kusut ue
awk akn slalu tawu pasal sy dr kwn awk
mungkin bahagia untuk sy bukan sekarang
ad bahagia pada hari lain..
sy akn terus berdoa agar awk terus bahagia
mmg hati sy kecewe,remuk,hancur berderai ble nie sume jd
tp ni la dugaan hidup sy skrg yg harus sy lalui
sy tawu syg kan seorang ue xharus sy miliki
melihat dan mendengar kebahagiaan dye
da cukup untuk buat sy rase bahagia
msih ad ruang utk awk dalam hati nie
mmg kwn sy suruh sy benci an awk
sy cube,, tp xboleh,,nth la xtawu knp
awk jgn trus rase bersalah..
sy cume ingin an kebahagiaan untuk awk
terima kasih awk utk bahagia sekejap yg awk bg
terima kasih awk mengajar sy jd lebih matang dlm hidup dan berfikir
andai jodoh kite bersama agy, pintu aty sy sentiase trbuka untuk awk..
dye lebih memerlu an awk berbanding sy
sy sedar sume niee
sy lepas an awk sejak hari kite berjumpe
sy mnx maaf sbb xlihat muka awk buat kali terakhir
sy xkuat mase ue
sy xnk menanges depan awk.
sy tawu kalau sy menanges itu akan beban awk

selamat tinggal awk..semoga awk bahagia dengan dye
i need to be more stronger than now for ur happiness

hard to say it but easy to write it on

Come now inside my heart, You're telling me about love
I pray that this isn't a dream
My heart keeps telling me that i shouldn't let go of you
and that i should be greedy.. it's saying stuff that's stupid
Your love that came accidently.. it wasn't strange at all
But I didn't know that our promised relationship/fate/destiny would become love.
Sometime later, I have to send you away.. but I don't have the confidence to do that
You found the place that I was alone at.. Now you're gonna go back
I knew it was going to happen, but why does my heart hurt
Now you're gonna go back to your place because you found the love you wanted
I have to send you, a happy/bliss person, away with a smile
You tell me about Love while lookin into my eyes, but it's a lightly passing by (small/grazing) love
I'm so happy right now, it's like i'm dreaming a dream
Now you know that from the beginning we were in love
You found the place that I was alone at.. Now you're gonna go back
I knew it was going to happen, but why does my heart hurt
Now you're gonna go back to your place because you found the love you wanted
I need to send you, a happy/bliss person, away with a smile
Can't you give me your love, Can you really not/Is it Impossible?
But now I love you so much...
i need to let you go with a full of smile eventhough it hurt me badly till i hard to breathe out you away
i try to fill up my love inside ur heart but u are not allowed it to pass through
cause i knew that i'm just a milk for u
i accept everything bout u
but u not consider it at all
because there is voices out there telling u that i'm not just a good enough for u
if u allowed me to fill up ur heart i will made it ur heart full of rainbow with all my love for u
now,i'm alone again with our memories inside my brain and heart
i'm just speechless when u tell me everything.
now i'm realize being a coke is better than being a milk
i tried my best to hate u
but it made my heart more hurt
easy for me is just remain silent and see everything between u and her
my heart is always open for u to come again
i will ensure that u will have a wonderful day with me everyday..
but it just my dream..i will let you go
i can take care of myself'
i can behave myself
i hope there is sunshine for me
i hope there is someone can running of with me together
i heard this song every nite since that day

cinta dalam aty

mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
mengagumi tanpa di cintai
tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia
dengan hidupmu, dengan hidupmu

telah lama kupendam perasaan itu
menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah 
bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku
ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu
meski ku tunggu hingga ujung waktuku
dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
dan ijinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejab saja

i hope u happy with her..
i hope she will made u felling good everyday..
i hope she know how to made u happy
i hope she can understand u
i hope she will stop made u felt in pain anymore
i pray for ur happiness
if i see u happy with her
it just enough for me


now.. i will running of alone again
i will keep on running til i tired
i will keep running to find a new sunshine in my life
good bye johor bahru, hello kedah... :)
i hope there is sunshine for me there
i think Allah heard my pray.
the person i miss damn much just cll me and said that him miss me badly
he will look after for me at kedah..
and he ask me would i love to be with him again..
and my answer for him 'awk da mkn?' 
i just wanna running of alone
i'm just afraid to be with any guys about this moment..
SOORRRYYYY.. 
my heart still felt the pain that u have done with me
my heart still felt pain with the another guy in here
 i just wanna keep on running again...............................................................