life in uitm merbok

damn.. just a few days kt sini da rase mcm bertaun.. sume ssh.. ya allah inikah dugaan kt sini..
mkn ssh,,transport..bayangkan la weekend nak mkn lunch pon ssh..mlm boleh katakan makan bnd same..
mlm nie mkn nasik goreng ayam lepas ue char kuey tiaw..loss of weight suddenly..seriously.. xkn la hari2 nak mkn maggi..sekarang serious mmg aq tgh nanges..meratapi hidup kt sini.. 6 bulan nak bertahan.. kalau ad kete or moto..much easier our life kt sini.. skrg kol 1.42 pm.. and aq still xmkn lunch.. nak mkn maggi? hm xde slere... nak keluar carik kedai mkn xde.. bayangkan laa.. nk kene g kedai mkn pon kene naik cab.. people easy to say anything..but they doesnt know my condition here.. seriously,, i miss home soo much.. :'(
tgk org blek umah cuty weekend.. sedeyh jek.. untongggllaaa korang umah dekat boleh blek.. yg aq niee? jb ke kedah.. 12 hours.. tgk housemate aq parents dorg dtg tgk dorg pon aq sedeyh.. some of them dpt jmpe bf dorg pon aq sedeyh..this is life.. in this week.every night aq nges.. but in front of my housemate i show them i'm okay.. every day mama and skype..cll.. aq pretend aq happy.. but the true is i'm not okay here..now..housemate aq sume kuar.. and i'm alone.. with myself.. at the end of this house.. crying alone and wish them come home early...

i move on slowly through this song..:)

Here I am again, doing things I said that I wouldn't doSo get off your knees, your words don't mean anything
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/bruno_mars/only_when_youre_lonely.html ]
After all the things you put me through, ooh still I come right back
But now I know the truth, I can finally see
You only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely

Oh, nothing's ever changing, decisions you can't make it
You just think of yourself and never me at all
If you're with your friends, you just string me along
But I won't allow it anymore, so it's time for me to move on

It's 3AM and I'm rushing out the door to see you
Waiting, all day, but now you wanna call me
Why do you do this to me all the time?

After all the things you put me through, still I come right back
But now I know the truth, I can finally see
You only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely

Had me fooled from the start and I quickly gave my heart
Cause I loved you, loved you, loved you
But this is what happens when you're a lonely girl with no one to turnNow I'm stronger, don't need you any longer

Cause I can finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely
Only when you're lonely, lonely
Only when you're lonely

I can finally see, you only want me when you're lonely
If I say I'm gonna leave, that's the only time you want me
Next time you need me there I won't make it
Another late night call I won't take it
Cause now I finally see, you only want me when you're lonely